Somewhere in the last two weeks, I’ve lost my motivation and drive. I’m not sure where it went, but I have a faint idea it could be a combination of possibly low iron, cold weather, and potential over-training. I haven’t even felt like writing this blog post because I am not 100% sure what’s going on.
We all know running takes up a lot of energy, both physically and mentally. But after 10 years of running and racing regularly, I’m generally used to getting through the day with heavy legs after a workout or a little less sleep from an early morning run. It just becomes the way you go through life.
But lately, running has zapped me completely, draining any excess energy I once had to get through the day. My morning miles haven’t been leaving me feeling charged and ready to start the day, I feel completely depleted instead. I feel lightheaded and weak at work, wanting to crawl into the empty office and curl up on our bean bags and sleep (ok, that happens on normal days, too).
I went to see a doctor last Friday but there is not much we can do until I get a blood test. I’m thinking it may be low iron again but I also wonder if its overtraining? I’m not running as much as I did during marathon training, though, so I’m not sure. I am hoping to get in for the test on today so we’ll see. Did I also mention I have an extreme phobia of blood, needles, and veins so I am popping a (prescribed!) Xanax before I go? Fun times. I will 100% still hyperventilate and cry like a 2 year old as I am on the verge of passing out.
I’ve talked about my low-iron levels in previous blog posts and it’s frustrating that this issue keeps resurfacing. I know it’s a combination of genetics (my mom, not an athlete, was so severely anemic she had blood transfusions) and running, but I have been supplementing regularly with liquid ferrous sulfate for a few months now and don’t know why I am still feeling this way. In some cases, I want my blood test to come back abnormal so I have an answer as to why I feel so crappy!
Both Megan and Kelly have written really great recent posts about iron-deficiency and anemia; go check them out if you’re interested in learning more details about this topic as they are far more articulate and research-based than anything I’d attempt.
So what can I do in the meantime? Continue taking my liquid iron with Vitamin C to help absorption, maybe add another rest day into the mix, and keep on running. With just under 3 weeks out from the half-marathon (!!!), my mileage is cutting down anyway but I want to feel motivated, confident and strong going into the race, not exhausted and shot.
Here’s to hoping my drive and energy return back soon Stay tuned for the results of my blood test, hopefully by the end of this week.